Friday: Friends and Fury

8 Feb

“And there is nothing more dangerous in this world, in any world, than someone calm, clear and angry.”
― Audrey Hart, The Dig
Friday is often a difficult day for me. I get distracted for a couple of hours in the morning by making a big pot of soup, sandwiches, or some yummy dessert for my senior art group, but then my mind screeches back to reality.

Today was a cold dreary make some soup kinda day. I bought a big ol’ birthday cake to celebrate Miss Kathy’s birthday, and I hauled all that and a big basket of art supplies and headed over to Towne Creek. I put on my phony happy face, warmed up the food, worked on art projects and made small talk. Inside I was bursting. The sad part is they know me too well and they know I’m hurting. They are my friends and my extended family. Thank goodness for friends, and people who talk you down from the ledge. (You know who you are.)

When the going gets tough, the tough make soup.

We ate soup with warm rolls, then Miss Kathy made a wish after we sang happy birthday.

I’m not sure if I am angry or hurt or mad or just disgusted with my life in limbo. But, whatever it is, I’ll be happy when I figure it out. Right now, I feel calm, clear and angry. Hopefully one day soon, I’ll be able to bake muffins and shit again.

OK, I got that off my chest. Thanks!

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